I've never touched this blog for the last 8 plus years, Sec 1 to JC to Army to Uni.
A lot has happened, and I've come through most of it.
Turns out I wasn't as smart as I thought, and I was pretty pretentious.
I was just thinking about the next 8 years of my life, planning stuff out.
It's so uncertain, but I hope it'll be great.
I hope no one ever reads this blog so I can put my will or my life plan here or something.
I'm a Materials Science and Engineering guy now, and I hope I'll change for the better in 8 years.
God, I'll be 30. Let it be a good 8 years.
I'm keeping the rest of this stuff from 2009 here, it's so embarrassing.
I trust no one who knows about this blog will blackmail me or make fun of me in the future.
Clearly, I'm still naïve.
If I believe in anything, I want to believe in the goodness of people. That hasn't changed.
Background of my day:
It's a holiday, I've been slacking, playing a few rounds of Overwatch and binge watching Extra Credits, a game design educational youtube channel that also dabbles in other things. I'm into the idea of design lately as a possible career option, but I think of too many career possibilities to decide. One day if I'm lucky, I may be able to use all the skills I chose to pick up to succeed in a job I love.
Ashley was distraught over a problem today and I said some encouraging things (text). It's hard to believe me sometimes when I'm being positive because I can be sarcastic, but I hope people can feel when I genuinely mean them. I hope for so many things. I hope I can doubt myself less about whether I act selfless because I secretly wish for people to treat me better. God, help me. No sarcasm intended.
signing off for now,
le shawn
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